Cry For You

This thorn in my flesh

Is the only thing I got left

And it's so hard to confess

When everybody thinks you're perfect

But I cry for you

If you feel it too

And I'll cry for you

If you show how to lose

The elephants in the room

Take it away, I beg you, take it all away

The pain it causes, it makes me wish I could fade away

If they knew what you knew, they'd probably shun me

I'm surprised you know it all and you love me

I know I break your heart

Body of death, give me rest if my heart stops

Then it don't hurt no more, can't get worse no more

Can't pursue all these desires, it ain't cursed no more

No more lies about my worth no more

I understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside

But when I stop and think about my family, I feel new inside

I promised I would die a thousand deaths 'fore I cause them any pain

But somehow I end up killing everything

I cry for you

If you feel a dark, twisted, heart-wrenching, hate-to-see-your-own-reflection

Praying for an intervention, feeling guilt and feeling shame

I just call on Jesus name

Praying daily, can you take away this pain?

Take the thorn away

Still, it remains, I

Feel the same, I

Know that I'm here, but

Still feel insane

Satan would love to see my give up and throw up my hands

He say I'm guilty but You say I'm clean

This thorn in my flesh

Is the only thing I got left

And it's so hard to confess

When everybody thinks you're perfect

But I cry for you

If you feel it too

And I'll cry for you

If you show how to lose

The elephants in the room

Yeah, Sunday morning, or Sunday mourning

I woke up dead inside from all the hurt I saw before me

Evil tryna take away my testimony

Starin' at my phone, feelin' like a phony

Oh, I cry for you, I would die for you

To escape the pain I feel from all that I've been through

I feel it in my soul and in my chest

Take away this ugly thorn inside my flesh

Give me death

But grace is sufficient to start my mission

I'm so far from perfect, can't believe they listen

But hear a broken man 'til your healin' happens

And hear a liar tell you truth to bring you gladness

I could never boast in my accomplishments

I can only hope in God with confidence

Opposite of optimist, U and I are consonants

Broken all the vowels, deservin' of every consequence

Will you cry for me, or will you judge me?

Will you throw stones at my head, or will you love me?

I could never be everything that you wanna see

But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me

(But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me)

This thorn in my flesh

Is the only thing I got left

And it's so hard to confess

When everybody thinks you're perfect

But I cry for you

If you feel it too

And I'll cry for you

If you show how to lose

The elephants in the room