Wish It Wasn't True

Uhh, you I, umm

I know I just got out of rehab, but uh

I actually need to be checked back in, yeah

I didn't think this was gonna happen to me, man

Feel like I'm back in that dark place

Somewhere in between a rock and a hard place

And I ain't doin nothin' bad, I'm just doin' bad

Feelin' empty when I got more than I done ever had

So I'ma do what I do best when I feel depressed

Go ahead and let my pen bleed out the stress

In the margins, me and wifey arguin

I don't remember why

But basically I ain't washin' her in ephesians 5

She get out of line, I don't show her grace

I get a pen and I trace her

Now we need an eraser

I'm like, God, give me a sermon or a verse

Anything to break the curse; I feel like it's getting worse

But it's like for every step up in the right direction

Come with two swift punches to my midsection

I get discouraged and I question is it really worth it

Maybe tryin' to change the world isn't really my purpose

I wish it wasn't true

But it is, though

Now the kids know

I'm not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though

I wish it wasn't true

But it's very true

And if it's scaring you

Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you

I can settle and be suburban, put down the spurgeon

Be concerned with keepin' my home furnished

Now my fire burns only for my own advancement

Forget a passion for the pastors in sudan

The kids in afghanistan, who be losin' their dads

They took a stand, saying that christ is more than a man

Man, I got the blues

I ain't got a clue how to get 'em another hue

All I wanna do is escape with a cold brew

Go to sleep and wake up and pretend that it's all cool

I wish it wasn't true

But ain't no quick fix on the wish list

Trials make you better while they make you sick, yeah

I was dyin' to try

Now I'm dying from trying

Now I'm trying to die

To the lies I'm buying

I wish it wasn't true

But it is, though

Now the kids know

I'm not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though

I wish it wasn't true

But it's very true

And if it's scaring you

Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you

How come I wait till I'm downcast and gray

Before I think, lecrae, you may wanna pray

You may wanna walk in that library

Get one of them commentaries

See what them old dudes got to say

But it's easy to push play on the youtube video or the vimeo

Escape from the menial, letting all these subliminal messages

Wash me, watch me as I watch these

People tell me what I can purchase just to wash these

Blues away, functional savior, I'm getting mine

It's $19.99 for a limited time

Besides, after that I'm sure that I'll be feeling fine

Ok, I'm lying. Really I'm just dying to try

And for the 55th time times 9

I'm disappointed looking for anything but the divine

Save me from what I'm feelin' inside, it's like a crime

How I end up in the same place every single time