Are First Loves Forgotten?

I was always so good at selecting words

To hurt rather than heal

Busy premeditating verbal murder

We should have instated a code of silence between us

Instead of choosing to speak, every something was wrong

forcing feelings, tiring ourselves out

Many times without a doubt,

Shutting up might have saved us

My fingerprints washed off your body

Kisses wiped from your lips

Inspection couldn't find a mark left behind

Or proof of the time I spent inside you, beside you

With all the skin we shared, I'm scared

You've taken back what I mistook as my own

causalities spared, judgement impaired

For what cause was I disowned?

Are first loves forgotten?

Open words with a closing, to insight a battle

Overhead glances invite free interpretations

Jealously vows a way to get back at me suddenly

It's over with no time to explain

I was honest with someone, when honesty wouldn't work

Again paths crossing, feeling secure

Long enough to catch my reflection, rejection

In a way you can say that everything in life

Has an expiration date

Running out of breath

Running to your rescue

Signing to donate my heart

Finding it's been rejected by incompatible blood types,

Complications and misunderstandings

Close your eyes when your lips are covering my mouth

Or you don't mean it.

I wish some insight would have come to me

Before self surgery

You see, I wasn't the first to have torn into my chest

To win you over

But for me it is over and that is to say

You won't be missed

Wait, before you say good-bye,

Let me take a picture to remember

Not to meet you again in another life,

or in another's body

We have to stop meeting like this