Ambrosial

Each day seems harder than the last

I find myself struggling

To live to someone else's fullest potential

Let the ugly deliquesce from my face

Jam these fingers down my throat in hopes that tomorrow is easier

Easier than yesterday

A book once filled of photographs, some now removed to prevent onset of pain

I've played this scenario over and over again

I cannot give or take without guilt

Every step taken

The foward momentum striking nerves

Every step taken

This hole widens in my chest, a vicious cycle of pain that is passed on

You passed this curse, this plague

Every touch, every kiss, every embrace... deepens my scars and spreads to others

I cannot love without guilt

Time does not heal, it only makes you weaker

This void lets me know i am destined to die alone

I would lasso her like a cowboy, but my rope isnt long enough

I'm dying here.