(4am) Loops

After all this pain I've endured

I still suffer this abuse

Now I just feed your destruction

And watch at your amuse

From this cancer that eats away at me

I guess it's no surprise

I'm a corpse in disguise

With nowhere to hide

With nothing to gain, I receive all the pain

I search for my way to make things okay

Just obstacles that tie the same

I could try to survive this game

Who are you to lie?

Who are you to hide behind that high

Of your self-obsessed mind?

I'm not weak, I'm not afraid, I'm not scared

I could try to make things okay, but I'd have to go away

I'm scared to release

I'm scared of beneath

I'm scared of you and I'm scared of we

I make moments into time and you make time into misery

How can I wake up from this bad dream one without you or me?