To My Momma

Take a look at my past, bet you'd wonder how I last

My life is fading right before my eyes, very fast

Reminisin' bout the mother that I never had

She split from all this shit and left me with dad

Goddamn, was it my fault, somethin' I'd done

To make my mother leave and forget her muthafuckin' son

Now I ain't seen her for thirteen muthafuckin' years

Where the fuck you at mom? I've shed so many fuckin' tears

You must not give a damn what the fuck happens to me

What about my older brother, you think that he doesn't see?

You and dad wasn't in love, why the fuck am I here?

Am I a mistake? Is that why you disappeared?

Now I'm madder than a muthafucka, take a shot of liquor

I know it ain't good, but it will get me off this Earth quicker

I wish I could go back and miscarriage my birth

Ain't nothin' worth livin' for on this hopeless Earth

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Dear momma, reall what the fuck can I say?

I don't even know you, does it have to be this way?

Don't a fuckin' minute pass that you ain't on my mind

Without you in my life, I feel so blind

My father tells me about you, I don't know if it's true

He said you never cared for me, so why the fuck should I care for you?

Is it true? Do you hate me? Am I not your child?

If I ever met you, would you be in denial?

Tell me why there's so much hate between you two

Everytime I ask my dad it falls right back on you

If you wuz never in love, what took so long to find out?

You had my brother four years before I wuz planned out

Life's just fucked up, this shit just isn't fair

I don't even know you and you don't even fuckin' care

For all I know, you may not even be alive

Goddamn, if you ain't I won't even cry

If you are gone I probably won't feel any anger

My feelings won't let me cry for a muthafuckin' stranger

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I'm just writin' you this song to let you know how I feel

I play life like it's a game, but shit is just so real

Now I understand why I just don't give a fuck

With all this pain in my brain, I feel like I'm stuck

So, I'm smokin' weed and doin' thangs I ain't supposed to do

Well, it looks to me like I'm takin' right after you

So, momma if you hear me, I ain't too far

I won't live long, cuz life is just too hard

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I dedicate this song to my muthafuckin' momma.

To anyone without a momma, y'all know how it feels.

Life's harder than a muthafucka, exspecially not knowin' your momma.

But keep it real, you gotta keep your head up, that's my word.