Unloved

My legs are too thick and then they're too small

I'm everything I hate and then I'm nothing at all

I want him to see me, I want him to stay

But if he says he wants me I will push him away

I skip my dinner, I paint my face

He picks me up, we stay up late

I close the door, I've lost my way

So I drown myself in pain

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved

I feel so unloved

I search for a high, a way to get by

They'll judge no matter what so I don't really mind

I'm never enough so I act like I'm tough

But on the inside, I just wanna cry

I weigh myself, I stuff my face

I'm half alive, I'm so ashamed

I kiss him once, I feel nothing

So I do it all again

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved

I feel so unloved

They judge me like we're not the same

At least I know, I'm in this game

We run, we hide, we feel, we cry

You can't deny, you feel the pain

Distractions won't take it away

The food, the clothes, the boys, my drugs

I push it down, I lock it up

So many ways to waste my time

I use it all to dry up the flood

It's all because I wanna feel loved

Yeah, I feel so unloved