Sherbet Sunset

La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la

La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la

That little grey area

Yo

It's hard to talk about somethin' that I don't believe in

L-O-V-E, can you tell me what's the meanin'? I been dreamin'

How the fuck was you that deceitful? I didn't see it

Hard for me to paint a picture, you'll just have to meet him

Gave my all to you, wanted to give more to you

Should've been honest with yourself, nobody was forcin' you

I ain't even mad at you, Chuck, I'm just mad at me

Should've known better, mummy taught me better strategies

Still it burns, guess it's a blessing and a curse

Life goes on, this another lesson learned

Mind switched on, you can hear it in a verse, right?

But you will never know how much it really hurts

Images so vivid, so clear, oh my, dear

You have no idea who I know here

Think fast, be on your A game

Silly for me to think we was on the same page

You really don't know anybody these days

She stays for his sake, a sweet face

Mind spinnin', the clock tickin', my soul missin'

Did well to convince me that you're so different

Give someone an inch and they will take a mile

It might take a while

Now I see you've approached this in a faker style

This must be the apocalypse, feels like the world's ending

Who am I? I'm a mess, more sinning, more spending

More down days tryna make it through the seventh

Can't believe I almost got rid of my independence

Type of fuckery will have you look at yourself and start second guessin'

Now I'm on crud like shit will get messy if you ever get to testin'

But really I'm a sensitive soul and I'll stress it

What happens when someone takes advantage of that?

Lost part of myself, and I can't get her back

Oh, my love, I been waiting

For you to run back home, oh

Oh, my love, I been investigating

If you went and found new love, oh

How the fuck you get twang, Simz? You smarter than that

But you don't see it when you're in it, that's the hardest of facts

I can't relax, my heart racin'

Remember when I heard the news, I just couldn't face it

If we ever talk again, it's on a last name basis

I know where to place you

I'm just tryna understand it

I don't wanna hate you

Guess you had to do what you had to do

But just know nobody rates you

Key word in all of this is you

I wonder what I did for me, I hardly remember me

What a waste of chemistry, energy and empathy

Wonder when you planned to let me know about her pregnancy

You have no integrity, emotion or respect for me

Clearly wasn't meant to be

This was temporary

This the clearest I've seen it, was bound to end eventually

Still it hurts tremendously, can't bear the intensity

Oh, my love, I been waiting

For you to run back home, oh

Oh, my love, I been investigating

If you went and found new love, oh

I kept quiet 'bout the situation

But now I'm sayin' my piece, though

Nothing lasts forever

There's me acting like I didn't know

I can't do relationships for Instagram

Posing like my life is perfect, really it's the opposite

Lately I been down a lot

I talk to no one about it

Can't even write about it, damn this writer's block

Hittin' me like never before, still I record

Been in the raw, smokin' just to take my mind all off

Everything that I should've been mindful of

Everything that I've enjoyed in life, I'm a survivor of

Making sure to understand the small print 'fore I sign it off

You was meant to be in my Grammy speech, your entire loss

I'll just keep it real, truth won't be concealed

Please don't listen to this and ask me if I'm hurtin' or if I'm okay

Allow me to be human and be in my feels

Chill, I'm good, I got it

I never lost it

Or am I just lying to myself to skip the topic?

La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la-la, la-la

Oh, my love, I been waiting

For you to run back home, oh

Oh, my love, I been investigating

If you went and found new love, oh

Oh, my love, I been waiting

For you to run back home, oh

Oh, my love, I been investigating

If you went and found new love, oh

Your heart cries at night alone

Your heart cries at night alone