Irony

I feel that walking has become another chore

I don't think I can go on walking anymore

Forgive me for those words, I know they're but a cliche to you

But life is tiring, my feet are feeling sore

I wish that I could have a bit of time

To heal the ache that is growing stronger all the time

But I know time stops for nobody, let alone me

And so I go inevitably

Whenever things are going rather happily

It turns out life is just playing a trick on me

It's slightly shameful to admit the truth, I end up in tears

And so returns the same old melancholy

I miss when life was just simplicity

And misery wasn't always chasing after me

It's pretty obvious now, I should have left my regret

But I held onto it so foolishly

Maybe I overreact a bit, it hasn't destroyed me yet

Has it? But everything I desire is always just too far to get

Honestly it's just me, brainlessly, so silly

Always hoping for good to be

If that's the case

Then just hear my plea

Pick me up and drop me

Into unfaltering sleep

You say to look hard for a solution

But wouldn't that depend on the person?

So I could never. No, I could never

Believe a word anyone says

I know that everyone has their hardships

It's fairly clear to me that I'm not alone

But how is it that they can just leave them

I just don't know at all

Often I'm told I need to clean up my act

Although maturity is something I lack

And so when some simple little problems arise

I overthink them over and over again

It seems that the world is just a troublesome place

So sometimes I think that I should just end the pain

You're sick, aren't you, dear? I'm sick of the tears

Why can't everything just end simply?

Everything I aspired to be is nothing that will become of me

If my expectations are too far-fetched then just what am I to do?

Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die

Give me a chance to prove my worth

I constantly search for

A place to cry

Why won't these tears just stop

Pouring from my eyes?

It's hard to constantly think of the same things

It's just unnecessary to think too much

You always told me stars would guide me back home

Although they only show at night

You always showed me so much kindness

I don't deserve it, I have failed you too much

I think my tiny heart is going to split

Just leave it be for now

Step back from me

Please leave me be

This so deceitful road that I stumble on

Is never going to end

It's getting difficult to manuever

And it's just worthless to try and run away

So I'll just hold my hands over my ears

And block out all this noise

How can I live not knowing what life is?

Sometimes my dreams seem to be more realistic

Obviously I can't be called happy

Then what am I after all?