What Have I Become?

And now I really don't care no more

Things never go the way they should

It's not sad but it's not ok

I turn into what I am

As if nothing else could hurt me

And everything I want to do

And in a land with a thousand seasides

I never really learned to swim at all

I really wanted to

And when the music comes over the houses

And I thought

And now I really don't care no more

Efforts never made a change here

And high hopes made it worse

And I turn into what I am

As if nothing else could reach me

And in a house with a thousand windows

And if I only knew why I was drawn to this

It is sad and I'm not ok

And when the music comes over the houses

Sadness never was a choice here