A Letter To You

We were only teens, barely 16

You were in your bedroom while I was doing big things

We used to talk about our dreams on the phone

Till your mom comes home from work

We say our goodbyes

You try to get some rest

I stare at my ceiling

Thinking about your voice through the

Phone

How can I fall in love so fast

Is this even real or is this a dream from the Past

I start to wonder if you feel the same

You’re different

Was the first thing you told me

In the morning when you opened up your

Beautiful eyes

During school, I can feel your presence

Right beside me

I couldn’t stop thinking about you that day

You made me get phone taken by my bio teacher, remember that? (chuckle)

And remember how we told our moms about each other?

I remember you turning goth for a day

No matter what lifestyle you tried to fit into, it always looked so good on you

Remember how I saved your contact as Future wife

How could I ever forget about our talks about

Running away together to some small town out in the country

Faking our deaths and starting a family

You would’ve been such a great mom

And an even better wife

We both told our friends about each other

Had each other in our Instagram bios

Fast-forward about 3 months, and we’re already not doing good

Useless arguments

Ignored messages and calls

I caused you so much stress you didn’t deserve

I can feel you losing interest

And don’t forget that FaceTime call we had where we cried together

I wanted to hold you so tight and never let go

You were my other half

We break up for a little

Try to find someone new

Now it’s June schools out

And you already met someone new

Seeing you smile with him made me regret the hardships I put you through

July comes around, and you blow up my phone the same way you blew it up when I didn’t reply after 10 minutes

It was around 2am you call me crying

I ask what’s wrong and you’re as silent

As a broken-hearted girl

You eventually tell me that you’re sorry for everything and that your man left you

2 years pass and I haven’t heard from you since 2 July’s ago

I'm about to get on stage and perform, have you forgot about me?

Are you living a happy life with a new man? I walk onto the stage, perform my music

Towards the end I can scan the crowd

Surprisingly, I see you with the biggest smile on your face

I haven’t been the same without you and knowing you still support me inspires me to do my best

I remember you told me how much you loved it up there

It feels like we’re falling in love again

7 years passed, and we finally have kids of our own

We buy a nice house in a small town in the Midwest

Just how you wanted

Our kids eventually grow older and have their own kids

Feel old yet, sweetie?

We’re grandparents

Now we’re stuck inside the hospital

Lying on your deathbed, I grab your hand

We start reviewing our life together

Remembering all the fun times we had as teens

Getting married

Buying our first house together

Everything seemed to go by so quickly

Doctor walks in and tells us it’s time

You look me in the eye one last time

I start to feel your hand loose grip

As a tear slowly rolls down your eye

I will never forget you

And we say our final goodbyes

Every now and again

I still visit your grave

Just beyond the bench we used to sit at late at night when we were reckless teens

Nobody ever told you how much I loved you

I loved you more than love itself

I miss you