Escape

To escape the perimeter of this fleshy prison

To escape into milky nimbus, blurry-eyed, light-headed

To erase dreams, memory and visions

To ultimately forget every word, every face, every nightmare

A permanent amnesia which foregoes responsibility, the enemy of freedom

But I can't forget

I remember too much

I remember evey detail, every nuance

Am forced to repeat even the most repellent occurrence

My sanity insists upon it

Insists upon expulsion

Purgation

Insists I wring from every cell

The poisoned thoughts, polluted deeds, malicious intentions

That would, if not puked forth,

Riddle me with disease

With sickness

With death

My incredible well-being is a testament to the curative of confession

The healing power of words

And if it makes you sick

So much the better