Before And After

This is hard for me to write it's difficult to express this

Its heavy on my shoulders and the weight gets relentless

The story of brothers and a beautiful friendship

And how relations get strained with pressure and tension

Who's wrong, correct, so, so, subjective

You look back its hard cos the mind gets adventurous

Dates get mixed up facts disconnected

The only thing you remember is the feeling that you're left with

It started as a blessing

Now you could write this off as luck or one of life's coincidences

But at some point you think god damn what are the chances

People with similar interests and influences

Coming together at that moment to form a kinship

It's like you knew that you was brothers before your conception

Even if you're not a spiritual person I admit shit

At that point I wasn't but at some point it sets in

It be foolish to dismiss this as coincidence

Now this shit is different, somewhere this is written

Be part of a mission, this shit is predestined

Closer than close like flesh is to tendon

Share my 50 cent bag of chips with my freshman

Half a half a gas station sandwich no question

Talking shit to me well then talking shit to him then

Family is sacred it must be protected

Family is sacred and it must be protected

Over time I don't know what happens something got infected

People grow in different ways at different rates I guess

It ridiculous, little shit it suddenly gets big shit

Lapses in communication, glitches in the system

He said that she said what nobody said shit

But you'll never know cos everyone's passive aggressive

I sit down smoke pow wow how everyone said shit

People cease to make the effort to get to the essence

Peep this shit out though this shit is really twisted

Funny thing is that you and I do it every minute

We take it in rhetoric every time somebody says shit

Against us stock piling every little incident

What's stupid is all the bullshit that's circulating

Could be fixed in an instant with simple conversation

But you know how pride is

A bitch with her fist clenched

That mixed with the fat drama gets addictive

Wounds need dressing and they don't receive attention

It snowballs and festers and creates resentment

People demonise each other brave discontentment

But nobody could've been prepared for the next step

The nature of the predator is calculated pensive

Waiting in the brush patiently revving they engines

Despite the colour that they got all they see is crimson

Waiting for they prey to become desperate defenceless

Outside is always over just beyond the fences

Today the gate is open though today they make an entrance

Friendly at first laughs jokes like we best friends

Slowly though you start to see they become hidden agendas

Nine to five one day insecure self perceptions

Shines a spotlight on all those paranoid self perceptions

Things begin to heat up everyone's already stretched thin

How could you be well how could you be so deceptive

Any second now someone will snap like a bread stick

And what once was simply dissolves like a breath mint

Just like that you start to ask yourself questions

Is this really worth all the emotion and depressment

Do the benefits and perks outweigh the pressure

Let me step back give this relationship assessment