FAITHFUL (feat. NLE Choppa)

Feel like I'm runnin' out of time, now they sayin' I won't shine forever, forever

I got my mind on my money, on my money, man, fuck it, whatever, whatever

Sometimes I wake up on the wrong side, I don't even feel like gettin' up

But this depression on my brain, hope it change but there ain't no lettin' up

Can't call it, don't know where my head is

Reflectin' on Malcolm and the shit I thought but never said it

To Peter, Robin, to Kevin

All my other friеndships that could have, would have, should have

And thеn they ended

I isolate between happiness and hopeless

Know it makes it worse, still wanna get loaded

Sometimes I feel like can't control my choices

And somethin' takes over and I can't turn off the voices

Sittin' with these thoughts, can't escape 'em, can't run

Got some bullets in the dresser as I polish my gun

They sayin' they clean as a day one

But I'm holdin' on, prayin' to a God, abandoned

Zonin' on the couch

Starin' at my daughter's, know there's a pill in this house that I'm obssessin' about poppin'

Reservations talkin', the push and pull of the conscience

Should probably pick up the phone and call my sponsor, but don't wanna

When the Percs don't work, Xannies won't calm me down

Not enough liquor in the bar, we growin' in the ground

Trapped by these walls where my brain can't get out

Wonderin' if my momma have to put her son in the ground

We stop growin' when the day break

Me and the homies on the same page

Find me in whip, that's my safe place

Feel like I'm gettin' weak, I need some help, ayy

Need someone to pray for my soul right now

Everything's lookin' great and there's no white clouds (oh)

I don't know what to say, I got nothin' to write down

On my knees, questionin' God like: Why now?

I'm lost but I'm found again

I'm up all night, I toss and turn

I love my life, I got concerns

I've been through hell, on some FML

It's just as well, I might lose it

I need some light, I need some air

I might be broken I need repair

Don't got the answers, think I'm confused

I asked myself: Who are you?

I need you right now Mack' to wake up more than over

Ain't no more weed, alcohol and poppin' pills, etcetera

I know these days get rough but they'll get better

It's a cold world, let's go to the Gucci store for a sweater

Feel it deeply in my heart, you need this letter

So I pour my feelings out to you, before I got and mail it (before I mail it)

I don't know what I'm sensin' but I could smell it

When you write me back, just tell it, I'ma soak it up and hell it (hell it)

Heard you got a daughter, well, I got one too

And she too beautiful, barely see her too (see her too)

Do you hug her and tie her shoes?

Is she reflectin' of you and got a smile that bloom? (Bloom)

Before you load that gun and shoot, just know that she be needin' you

The best version of you too

I would write more but my day about to break

We can meet up face to face, just let me know if this okay

We stop growin' when the day break

Me and the homies on the same page

Find me in whip, that's my safe place (that's my safe place too)

Feel like I'm gettin' weak, I need some help, ayy (I need some help, ayy, too)

Need someone to pray for my soul right now

Everything's lookin' great and there's no white clouds

I don't know what to say, I got nothin' to write down (nothin' to write down too)

On my knees, questionin' God like: Why now? (Why?)

I'm lost but I'm found again