Save Yourself

Have I been keeping you sick?

Here's me believing a bleeding heart's just a quick fix

All you needed was me, not my solutions or views

I wish I could take all this pain back I've put you through

I guess it's too little, too late

At least I can assure you; I had the best intentions

It's toxic, it's noxious, ironically honest

Get out tonight, don't say farewell

Run for your life, go save yourself

It's twisted, it's bitter, it's sickly sweet

Get out alive, while there's still time

And don't you dare even consider a next time

But through it all, you managed

I left you bruised and battered

Took you for granted, took advantage and vanished

And you'd think that just for once in my life

I'd take a step back and maybe consider what's on your mind

But no

You're the strongest person I know

At least I can assure you I'm afraid of my reflection

It's toxic, it's noxious, ironically honest

Get out tonight, don't say farewell

Run for your life, go save yourself

It's twisted, it's bitter, it's sickly sweet

Get out alive, while there's still time

And don't you dare even consider a next time

You're the strongest person I know

You're the strongest person I know

You're the strongest person I know

You're the strongest person I know

I've never been one to express myself so directly, more with imagery and symbolism

Obscuring my faults behind a veil of metaphors and euphemisms

But just for one moment, I want to be open and honest

If we can't express ourselves directly and be prepared to expect negativity, then we'll surely crumble under the weight of our insecurities

To search yourself and come face to face with your demons is terrifying

But if we can't face them, then how do we grow?

How do we recover, or know when we're wrong?

And yes, it's okay to be wrong

And I have been wrong, and I am wrong, and I am wrong!

And this is me, and in all honesty I'm not doing so well right now, but at least I'm finding the courage to face myself

Self deprecating? Maybe

Self absorbed? Maybe

Bravery? Definitely

I'm so sorry for all the pain and heartache that I've caused you

I just want you to be happy in life

I'll come and watch from afar, and admire you and every bit of joy and success that comes your way

I know that this is for the best, but it's been the most difficult choice of my life

I did this for you, and knowing full well the consequences

This is me and my acceptance, all I ask is that you remember me as I walk away