Angel of Death

Driving with the angel of death

I pass by your old department

Sniffing up the pills you left

Inside the limousine

Nobody could tell me how far

You said “we’ll stop to read each tea leaf”

Nobody could tell me how long

Just pacing patiently

I arrive, in the form of a radical being

You arrive, but the story can never be told

(It’s harder now to hold you)

Sleeping with the angel of death

I still find you in my shadow

Learning how the mirror reflects

I lose myself in you

I was told it wouldn’t be long

“Life’s a basket full of cravings”

Bettеr than the evil you know

Repеat yourself in me

You arrive, on the hood of your step father's Lincoln

The surprise, and I couldn’t remember the words

I'm on fire, and the guilt’s doing all of the thinking

I'm alive, but it isn’t the same as before

Slowly we become a single mold

Watching as my skin becomes your skin and starts to hold

I was told that there’s a wonder in the place our bodies go

Driving 'round the sins of both my lives will keep you cold

I deserve it, I’ve been stalling, I’ve been selfish, I’ve been wrong

Finally I heard my name, the absolution called

Now I need it, now I crave the writing burned into the wall

Sitting in your hands to watch the ending of it all

I arrive, in the eyes of my grandfather’s daughter

In the light, but I couldn’t remember your words

I survived, and the guilt's falling off me in pieces

I'm alive, and it isn’t the same as before

I thought this time I might just walk away from you

If I'm the thief and you’re the proof, its pain to choose

It felt like a first, but it wasn’t new

It felt like a sin, it was more like a noose

It’s harder now to hold ya

It’s harder now to hold ya

I'm ashamed, lost my decree, it paid to lose

The first of sixty thousand hours obsessed with you

It wasn’t a lie, but it wasn’t the truth

I tried blaming me, ended up blaming you

It’s harder now to hold ya