Gotta Be Alone

I remember thinking as I laid upon the floor

all of the lights off and listening to Sharp

I was afraid

but I'm not sure what of

and I would shut my eyes and turn on the tv

to people speaking in a language I can't speak

and I would say, how I would say

that I was being healthy

but no, I was far from healthy

and nobody saw me at all

but sometimes you just gotta be alone

and if you can't be happy on your own

then how will you ever be happy with somebody else

think I was dancing when she walked into the room

next thing I know, we're sharing a cab home

I made her laugh

but I should've left it alone

cause cut to two weeks later and I'm picking at a scab

when at a party her friend tells me "don't be mad"

'twas a mistake, a small mistake

and I was aware of that

but no, it don't hurt that bad

it's only a scratch

I'm not a train wreck for you

well she was falling down the stairs, drunk and pathetic

it was so hard not to laugh, I won't ever forget

I was sitting on the floor, dressed up as batman

flicking people off and making fun of their accents

concluding to myself that I would always be alone

but it was premature, I was only nineteen years old