All About Me

Looking at the broken mirror in my room I feel a tear

Fall down my face as I tumble apart

I am always on my own, I found some comfort all alone

But something hurts inside - my crippled heart

I thought that love would come for me

And I would finally be happy

But being a recluse is failing me

Everyone I have feelings for just laughs at me or just ignore

So I think I may have to say goodbye

I sit in my room in the dark away from all the public sparks

If I stay in here I might fade away

Then everyone will wonder why

They never got to say goodbye

The guilt will eat them up in heart and head

I only ever wanted love but I was stupid, it is tough

Just waiting for someone to want me too

I cannot make the effort now, crippled by my own self doubt

I wish someone was here to help me through

But in my head I'm having fun

And in my head I'm number one

Cos in my head I turn you on

But in real life I am just dumb

I'm fed up of people being so sad

Because they just got dumped, I've never felt affection

So be quiet

They say they all feel so let down

But I know love will come back round and make them happy

As I stand and wait

I'm told I'm sweet and funny too so why do I feel so blue?

Nothing I have ever done has worked

I know I'm going to die alone so shut the door

Cut off the phone - sympathy is something I'll live without

But in my head I'm having fun

And in my head I'm number one

Cos in my head I turn you on

But in real life I am just dumb

It's better to have loved and lost than to be like me

Devoid of anything, my heart only beats to bleed

I stay in bed throughout the day, I can't even masturbate

I've lost all sense of pleasure in my bones

The world outside is full of fun but I'm left out by everyone

I don't want them to feel I'm on my own

I miss the rain, I miss the stars and buttercups

Out where you are, but inside is the only place I'm safe

Outside there is no love for, people queue up to forget me

It's better if I hide and waste away

But in my head I'm having fun

And in my head I'm number one

Cos in my head I turn you on

But in real life I am just dumb

It's better to have loved and lost than to be like me

So just leave me alone as I die holding hands with insanity