Are You Afraid Of God? No, But I'm Afraid Of You

And it got cold in Essex County

When the old sat there side by side

Building tombs in the form of houses

Burying the rest of Old Joe's mind

And I can see them sitting

Aging into the light

Tucker into Someplace, Toranto

Saying, why can't you be alive?

And it got cold in Essex County

When they sat next to their graves

Screaming to nothing

If they could have just one more day

And all the drugs didn't help a thing

But fill his knees with epic pain

At the moment he let out a smile

Because at least he felt something

You wrote me off, I called it funny

Too troublesome, too tongue in cheek

I made friends with your distance presence

But by myself all I had was silence

Your cozy glare turned my eyes bloodshot

I missed you most when I could sleep

I know that my brother is better than he thinks he is

Maybe we should call each other

And I'll sit on top this train, spread myself ou

T and open the holes in my head

Spill out the contents of my brain, give them

To Joe to bring him back from the dead

Give me another bottle, so I don't mash my teeth

I won't be another animal, but maybe that's what I need

Lord knows I've been tryin', but human ain't my thing

Maybe all those pretty Ativan will feel better inside my skin

Lighting my lighter in my pocket reminding me that I'm here

(Am I imaginary, or is my voice not loud enough?)