I'm Trying

She said,

"I'm not pointing fingers"

But he said

"Yes you are

Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't"

And if I told you I'd been walking

Out in the dark night thinking,

Would you take as true

This alcoholic's word?

Oh I can't change. What's done is done.

But I can tell you this:

"Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself

And all my sins"

And I need you to hold on to

While this part of me is dying

Though I haven't kicked the demons

That haunt me

I'm tryin'

I'm tryin'

She sat down on the floor

And said, "I wish that I was stronger"

Right now I feel as fragile as glass

And I want to believe you

Believe what's held you has freed you

I hate these doubts that keep on coming back

My parents think I'm crazy

For hanging on this long

But there's nothing I want more for us

Than to prove to them they're wrong

And I don't wanna be afraid

I don't wanna think you're lyin'

And though I haven't found the faith that I need

I'm tryin'

I'm tryin'

He asked, "Do you want me to leave

Cause if you do, you know I will"

But she said much to his disbelief

"No, I love you still

Oh, I love you still"

He said, "I don't know why I've been the fool

But I can tell you this:

"Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself

And my sins"

Then he dropped down to his knees

By now they both were cryin'

He said: "I haven't been the man I want to be

But I'm tryin'

I'm tryin'

I'm tryin'

I'm tryin'"