Blood Letting

i've exhausted my pen

just to pinpoint a where and when this

all began

but all i can see

is where my fingers did touch these keys

a mass of steel that brings

angels with beautiful wings

wrapped around me as they sang

"i will protect the infected in all you see"

first i could taste the poison in my tongue

spread to my lips with every word i spoke

inhaled and exhaled through my lungs

we're incubating and assisting a virus

here in the crow's feet and cracks of my face

we found a place to hide and keep my secrets safe away

while years passed by

and days passed on

light and heat reflected off of me

to burn and melt shapes of who i used to be

but don't get caught

in what you saw

lesser men have died from what was growing inside

my fate i accepted i could not change

but no hospital

would have me

was this psychosymatic with no symptoms to diagnose?

alas i knew what was there all along

i could feel my insides burning

when my eyelids fluttered and my sweaty palms did stutter

locked all the doors and hid under my sheets from the cracks of these streets that were beckoning me

i would stare into the back of my eyelids

the audience is listening so preach on brother preach

we can sleep forever now or wake up just to dream

all these voices told me that i was different i didn't wanna be

but when i look into my reflection now i'm loving what i see

i'm the miracle in the mirror! i'm the miracle in the mirror!

see if god can't judge me

neither can you

i was sent on a mission for the evil things i do

when all else fails

in case of emergency

take two lives and don't call anyone in the morning

apologies and misunderstandings could shed light on a fatal night

i lost myself when i lost that will to fight

So how can we fix what has been broken when the pieces remain unnamed

with two hands to my face i will wash the blame away

for i got caught

in what i saw

the sky opened up and i gave my soul away

the sun pierced my flesh and i'd rather just erase the pain away