Smoke Signals

I'm sending you smoke signals

Through the fog and the haze

I'm hoping that you'll notice

And differentiate

Between my nicotine clouds

And the others floating about

Now I'm arguing with the shadows

So persistently willing to lurk

Just as I'm trying to decipher

Whether your smile's a grin or a smirk

And through this whispering wall

There's another that won't speak at all

But somehow I know you're considering this

By the end of the night we will kiss our first kiss

After several weeks of incredible bliss

You will tell me the words that a girl can't resist

And I'm burning at this end of a dream

I'm looking beyond shoulders

And peeking between heads

I'm thinking of approaching

But I sit and watch you instead

And now that I've caught your eye

I'm anticipating your reply

But I know that games like this have a price

Five years down the road won't be playing so nice

As we suffer the ills of another cold night

Two years of marriage, two years of my life

And I'm burning at this end of a dream

Now you're sending me smoke signals

Through the fog and the haze

But I barely notice as I turn and walk away

And through the nicotine clouds I imagine you fading out

'Cause we'll fight and we'll bitch and we'll mess up the kids

Who will ruin their lives from the love you won't give

And I'll feel so trapped in these walls of our home

But I'm so fucking scared of dying alone

And I'm burning at this end of a dream

Oh, I'm burning out at this end of a dream

So watch me explode as I blow off some steam

'Cause you know in the end I will know what you mean

But now I'd rather die than make believe

So I'm burning out this end of a dream