Loveless

I feel like a housewife in a loveless marriage with myself

My inner child is a handful, my bookshelf

It is neglected, all the stories left unread

And God I used to live so many lives

Talking to the ghosts on my walk home

To the notes in my cellphone

To myself, and I remind her that I like to be alone

What kind of friend would I even be?

What kind of person would I wanna meet?

Am I really happy on my own?

Do I really wanna throw away my phone

I wonder if it’s easier for mе to let myself care

Whеn the other person doesn’t really wanna be there?

'Cause I get scared

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don’t I? Don’t I?

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie, do I?

Maybe it’s all in my head, but the internet says

Adhd hurts couples, for bisexuals the risk of abuse doubles

My remaining instincts left with you, but am I lying through my teeth

Am I lying through my teeth?

'Cause I'm haunted by my shifting approach withdrawal

Am I ever gonna really wanna fall?

Am I ever gonna really wanna fall?

And I'm at my happiest when I'm lonely as hell

I miss voices, but my choice is to hide in the silence

It’s too goddamn loud in my head when I don’t leave my bed

But I need the peace and I can’t take any other kinda noise

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don’t I? Don’t I?

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie, do I?

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, don’t I? Don’t I?

I try so damn hard to make everything my fault, but I lie, do I?

History is bound to be repeated and I'm terrified

'Cause when I said I never wanna try again, I think I lied

I think I, I think I lied

I think I, I think I lie