Because I Love You

Because I love you I can't kill myself

She say I'll have to wait for someone else

Because I love you I can't kill myself

Say I love the way he

Say I love the way she

Yo, part of me hates you, part of me rates you

Part of me blames myself, but half of me knows it takes two

The other half of me is lost, that's part of me I gave you

Wear my heart on my sleeve, my arteries and my veins too (trust)

We just used to link in parks

I just smash my yard while listening to Linkin Park

Things are dark, heart sinking when I think of Marc

Drinking can't stop the thinking

But can't stop drinking when thinking starts

Sitting on my kitchen top I'm single in my stinking yard

Spliff go out the window while I'm staring at a blinking star

Twinkle like an engagement ring that's still on a widows arm

You think it's hard? Think of sharz, who's thinking of ringing Marc

I really got sectioned, sent to chase farm

Now every time I'm off the radar I ring alarms

It's cool, tell 'em they can bring a pastor

One day I'm looking back on now to sing with laughter (ha ha)

Because I love you I can't kill myself

Say I like the ways of someone else

If I love you I won't kill myself

Instead it's fuck you, go fuck someone else

Say I like the way she

(We're both) going through trauma, emotional torture

You was 19, I was 24 but who was more maturer

Used to pull up in your fiat 500 on the corner

Used to ride around London not giving a fuck who saw us

Go to war for each other I never wanted this for us

Both grew up in a single parent household

We were poor but it was pure love, you made me feel like your love

Before you commit to being loyal

It's worth knowing how you was brought up

Before we got caught up, before we had a daughter

Coulda given her a life our parents couldn't afford to

Partners no matter what come between us

If I make you so unhappy I had no reason to keep ya

And if I really love ya then I reluctantly free ya

Maybe growing apart was always part of the procedure

Couldn't be a leader in a time of need I become weak

I loved you most when we was at our worst, that made it even deeper

The first week, I couldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep

I lay there wide awake and wonder what we coulda been

It's routine, wake up in the morning - cigarettes and tea

Hope you happy now I left you be, a solid member left the team

We lost the fight, no extra time, no referee

No acceptance speech, just lessons I kept with me

I don't need anybody to accept me, except from me

I went from want to need, you went from need to want

To: What you want from me? To finally wanting to leave and be free

Find inner peace, find the piece that runs from ya

Left you after one week, that's how you know I got love for ya

What's meant to be is meant to be, it'll come to ya

And if it doesn't who gives a fuck? Just live it up

For now our memories deleted, and feelings too

You used to make me feel like you would always keep it true

I said I couldn't live if I couldn't be with you

I was being used, wasn't treating you like my equal

That was peak to do

It's no wonder why you're leaving

When the person that you dream of turns out to be a demon too

We was a team of two, I wasn't evil

Just desperate for attention and I needed you

To the point I'm like a fiend for you

The more demeaning you became the deeper that my feelings grew

When we wasn't beefing or screaming about the kinda things that people do

We was cool, wish we coulda seen it through

Only me and you know about the evenings we're eating food

Laughing till we crease, now take it with ease

We was goals, we were greez, we were making 'em believe

Remember when the subway guy put bacon in the cheese?

I'm dead out on my feet, I can't chase you on my knees

I know all you feel is pain, you probably hate as much as me

Shoulda been stronger than you, you were stronger than me

You just fucking made me stronger than I ever coulda been

Cause three months after Marc died you decided to leave

What's mad is when I look at you, I'm reminded by me

If I was unhappy and wanted freedom, I'd take it

If I wanted to make peace, I'd make it

That's some selfish shit but I rate it

We only got ourselves in this Matrix

Yea, the cycle we couldn't break it

It's just a shame we did the same thing

As everyone else who don't plan for kids

We didn't plan for this, shit's cancerous, now the cycle spins

Trust, no time to whinge, I guess this time society wins

Next time I'll try again, until next time goodbye my friend

Because I love you I can't kill myself

Say I I'll have to wait for someone else

Girl I love you I can't kill myself

Say I love the way she

Say I love the way she