Doubt

I felt it happening so fast,

Although at first it took a while.

I was no one to dwell on the past,

But it chased away my smile.

I felt no grave questions to ask,

Until they burst into the open.

I did not see the fragile mask,

Atop all that was unspoken.

Did i walk down the right path?

Did i make the right decisions?

It is then that i feel doubt,

Afraid that it is all i am.

It pervades my life throughout,

And there is no one else to blame.

Sometimes it makes me want to cry,

And let it out as best i might.

Sometimes i feel i want to die,

And fade away into the night.

I thought my life can be a blast,

With odds that are there to defy.

I did not mind it to be fast,

Never look back and rather die.

I did not think the dice were cast,

With fate looming in the distance.

But i felt it take hold at last,

When it crushed all my resistance.

It is then that i feel doubt,

Afraid that it is all i am.

It pervades my life throughout,

And there is no one else to blame.

Sometimes it makes me want to cry,

And let it out as best i might.

Sometimes i feel i want to die,

And fade away into the night.

I will live with it all the same.

I will live with it all the same.

It is then that i know doubt,

But it is not all i am.

I will bring my life about,

And live with it all the same.