Second Reality

I thought in the end i had found a home,

But it was all just an illusion.

I thought this was where i would not be alone,

Instead it plunged me deep into confusion.

I thought there was always something

To condone.

But in the end i saw it would not work out.

I considered those gloomy times to be gone,

But now they were back, so beyond a doubt.

I can feel all the barriers torn down,

And all my thoughts, they feel so light and free.

All the baggage that died with my last frown,

To make way for a second reality.

I can feel so much that has gone away,

With that darkness no more a part of me.

All the things i thought forced me to stay,

Now forgotten with a past reality.

I can feel it die away without sound,

Like a fading image of a past me,

With no place in the freedom i have found,

Living in this second reality.

But i need to leave my place below deck,

So long have i felt it is long past twelve.

When i need to turn and never look back,

To go where i can just be myself.

I know somewhere i skidded off the track,

But i just could not see clearly back then.

I need to leave behind all that slack,

And find out once more who i really am.