I Accept That

Remember when I called you 'cause Abby was wasted

And didn't know how to get home

We drove around 'til she sobered up

And then I went home alone

It's kind of funny 'cause she married Ben

And I still see them every now and again

And I'm glad they're doing well

Sometimes I think I'm doing well too

Remember when we realized how much we cared

But we still didn't talk for a couple of years

So you kept writing letters and I kept writing songs

But you can neither give up or admit it's wrong

It's kind of funny because most nights I've got so much on my mind

But I feel alright or at least okay

But I still don't forget it

The longest night and the guilt that came with it

And I gotta believe in something

I spent half my life trying to figure it out

And the other half trying to believe in nothing

And when I wrote this down, I cried

And when we used to talk, I lied

And when I say that I don't care

I think I'm starting to mean it

I'm picking up those pieces well

This night has gone to hell

And we're all, Let's talk about the past, back when we were made to last

And all I've got in this world

Is like thirty five dollars and a small amount of skill

So I don't mind

I'm staying home

Avoiding the things that make me hate the most

You're on my mind

Some nights it's better

I can't feel worse than that

It's all regret

I hope it doesn't last forever