What Am I

In the darkness I see her shadow

As a lonely sad silhouette

I'm remorseful but my pride still

Is too strong to accept my regrets

I sit in silence crouched in a corner

I hear the hollow ticking of the clock

My mind is chasing thoughts that are fleeing

Oh god of mercy! Do I know what I have done

I rest my head in hands that tremble

I'm repressing thoughts of what I am

I am scared of the power of my feelings

I can't bear the burden of the deeds

I can't trust the nature of my being

Cause my hate is fiery and profound

Each passing minute feels like an eon

Time seems unreal in the presence of death

I'm spinning deeper into my madness

Clinging on to traces of hope

I rest my head in hands that are shaking

I'm denying the facts of what I am

I close my eyes but the scene I'm seeing

Keep's repeating again and again

I can't leash the fury I'm feeling

I cannot break the circle of my rage

I can't trust the nature of my being

'Cos my hate is fiery and profound