Last Night

I'm still frustrated from last night

Things happened at half-time, I'm sick of the bends

My panic research was no help

I sink into myself

Afraid of the fall that never ends

I wait, but I'm too tired to play pretend

I suffocate until the end

No time for halfhearted goodbyes,

I turn on the spotlight and flee from the scene

Cheap flights from Paris to Bangkok, I thought it was nonstop

Can't sleep on the KLM again

I haunt the halls of medicine at night

Choking back the urge to fight

Her cat was clawing the floorboards just outside of our door,

The panic begins

I searched the whole damn apartment from ceiling to carpet

No sign of the things she used to own

As autumn turns its back on me again

I climb the walls for oxygen

My body aches, it heaves, it shakes

All summer sounds so caught up

And I still don't know exactly who I am

I never will, amen.

She whispers something in my ear, the message is unclear

She motions outside.

I trail her closely from behind

She tries hard not to cry

She shakes underneath the pouring rain

I can't compete with all your damn ideas

This isn't working out for you and me

The truth is I'm too tired to play pretend

This is goodbye, this is the end.