Gut Shot

These photographs that hang on my wall meant everything

Looking back they all seem like a fading dream

But waking now I know that it's just a fallacy

I rub my eyes and face reality

How could I just sit and ignore all the signs

Was it easier to say it was fine?

Now the words are out in the open air

I try to make it right but you don't care

Content to be blind, not to see

Happy to follow, not to lead

But now that I've regained my sight

I won't be losing sleep tonight

Put up a wall I can't tear down

There's no reason, you don't have to shut me out

Suddenly it seems that you're too good for me

Remember when we were like family?

Now you've ruined everything

With everything passing day the space between us only grew

Whatever happened to the person I once knew?

And there were time I called you almost every single day

I know you'd see my name and put your phone away

Funny how expendable some things can be

Like our friendship and your negativity

You look down your nose at me with such disdain

You're so much better, "friend," how is the cocaine?

You're the last that I thought could do this

If you needed blood I would have slit my wrist

Now you'd cut me open just for spite

So I won't be losing sleep tonight

It seems that I have been betrayed again

By enemies disguised as friends

Feels like a gut shot that stripped away my breath

And now there's nothing left

And now there's nothing left