Lament

Today he died.

He starred in the void then took his own life

You watched me cry

Alone in the parking lot as I felt the now and forever collide

I fight in vain, try to deny, to push back the years, and the weight, and the gray

But it's in my face, the edge of the infinite, and we're all just inches and seconds away

My eyes are wide and I feel the weight

Sit down, breathe out, and try not to faint

Or be crushed by the scale of everything

What is man in the scope of existence

Just a blink on a dot in the dark

But the patterns that weave through the distance

Bear a voice that proclaims who we are

Your love oh g-d, I feel the weight

For who am I that you know my name

And then leave me the seas to display with the stars

That of all you have made you set man apart

For we are your treasure

Your heartbeat surrounds me

There aren't words to describe what you've shown me

Each man is in your image

And walking around shining just like the sun

The depths are not void they resound with the truth

That there's no peace to rest in, till we find our place in you

I see their souls, and feel the weight

Oh g-d forgive each word I waste

And grant that my throat with the sun would be raised

To banish the dark because I cannot take

Another death in my silence