Loss

And what if I told you that there will never be an end?

I'm cold snow and the world is conflagration

I didn't want it to be this way

These are not the plans they had for me

But sometimes I can't hide

Sometimes I find myself in this dark room

And I just wish I could see a way out

If I'm with you it's inevitable that I drag you in

And I'm afraid you'd see behind the pleasant face

I'm afraid you'd discern the hell within

The eternal and overwhelming feeling of loss

The glass walls represent no protection

And I take the force of the blow

There's fear and there are thoughts of ending it all

I felt warmth on your touch

It seems that your eyes have the means to dissect my heart

And meaningless is life now

Strange how dark falls suddenly in a bright sunny morning

And I can no longer envision what's around me

What's alive in me

Like a mourning song it takes to dance this motionless dance

Where all I can do is to stare at the fragile

Crumbling "brick" walls in the mirror

What am I when the sun rises?

What am I to do?

Where is the inspiration once so vivid in the veins?

Is this an infirmity or am I just now waking up?

My eyes are like your

But my truth differs

Anguish is a commanding thing when it strikes

It is the dark I see

It is the dark seed in me

Flourishing into all that wounds my essence

In the haziness further on

I can somehow discern the face of an angel

The face that now bleeds the cold heart of mine

Loss…

Fear…

And my shaking hands won't find rest

Breathing is so hard when you're swimming

In an ocean of tears