Idolatry

as the earth has seen the sunlight coming and going (clear and dark)

i've seen my idols coming. i've seen my idols going

one more great gain (my happiness)

one more bitter loss (my sadness)

my losses were always, unhappily, greater than my gains

lost in this maze

so many pathways to be followed

what's the best solution for a senseless life?

a terrible thing is a man who dies no accomplishing his goal

but the worst is one who lives without it

i hope to get something to fill this void in me

how can i occupy my mind and relieve my life from suffering and anguish

loneliness and disgust. martydom and guilty ?

what a shame. what a human waste .

don't say that it's lack of own love

senseless life of perception

that's the way of living which i've chosen for me

conjuring the dead and adoring their images

reality and fantasy confound themselves in my mind

gods, angels and saints

they've never told me what to do

creatures of stone

they don't move and tell me nothing either

i would like to materialize all my dreams and adore them

if there are dreams that are worth a life

there are lifes that aren't worth a dream

christ knew that the human race likes to adore the dead

they were needing a so called god

thinking of the immortality he died to

be adored. be contemplated. become an idol

candles, crosses, statues and the bible

they haven't got sense for me any more

i'll break all of those chains

which have hindered me for all of those years

will god comprehend me?

please, tell me

will my idols comprehend me?

help me!!

now, i guess, i'm my own god

nobody tells me what i shall think and do

will i be able to walk with my own legs?

during my existence, i've made nothing for myself

if they punish me..

i'm afraid

if that void grows again

i'll regret and die

"how may i help you, if you don't know what you want ?"