I Did What I Did

Friday in neon, the girl to the left of me’s jaded

She can’t feel her face

I’m on the roof, way too sober for this conversation

Can you give me some space?

My best friend’s acting a fool, she’s had too much to drink

Her visions blurred, she thinks that he’s been staring at her

But he’s looking at me

The guy that she’s here for’s a drag

Feeling me up when she turns her back

I kissed a boy and he tasted like cig

Everything happened so quick

I don’t remember his name

Or even the reason I came

I’ll never see him again

Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did

2am phone calls, you’re still on my speed dial, I hate it

But are you still up?

Talkin’ in the other room, so she won’t hear you sayin'

That she’s not enough

Truth is I just want attention, I’m not still attached

But if you wanna tell me I’m the best that you've had

I’m cool with that

I’m showing up at your house

You know you shouldn’t come out

I blame the past, I blame the night

For making me think this was right

Screw all the feelings I just

Wanna be feeling your touch

I’m kinda lonely, I’m kinda lit

Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did

The guy that she’s here for’s a drag

Feeling me up when she turns her back

I kissed a boy and he tasted like cig

Everything happened so quick

I don’t remember his name

Or even the reason I came

I’ll never see him again

Can’t say I’m proud but I did what I did

I’m not normally this unholy

My priorities are abnormally

Disproportionally filled with uncertainty

Take my mentality, give me morality