What Did You Expect?

Six months have been and I'm still sick of everything that makes you smile

I've been here before, I'm just hoping this will die down

But I've learnt from experience, that love is a risk and I'm just hoping you're hearing this

So maybe you'll know just how it feels to be sitting here

Wide-awake and far from dreaming

Don't tell me that I'll be fine

My broken bones are caving in

I feel you crawl beneath my skin

You went and fucked this up 'cause you couldn't keep your legs shut

And you'll find me burning bridges

Searching for some sense of distance

Tearing out post trauma stitches that held me together

So far gone, my mind is racing

Back and forth I can’t stop pacing

Thinking where we could have been if you just braved the weather

Fuck his car and fuck his money

He might pay for you but he's got nothing

I wont be in sight when you realise that I might just have been a more stable support

To the life that you'll build when he cuts himself short

Don't tell me that I'll be fine

I'm so sick of hoping you're right

And you'll find me burning bridges

Searching for some sense of distance

Tearing out post trauma stitches that held me together

So far gone, my mind is racing

Back and forth I can’t stop pacing

Thinking where we could have been if you just braved the weather

Take all I am

Tear me into pieces

Deconstruct my bones and tell me you still don't know who I am

You've got some nerve thinking we could be friends

Well what did you expect? A fucking compliment?

So take what’s left of me

A broken fragment from before

I guess I'll try to be the best I can without you here

I know I'll find myself along this beaten track

I'll have to let you go and let these ghosts stay in the past

So take what’s left of me

A broken fragment from before

I guess I'll try to be the best I can without you here

I know I'll find myself along this beaten track

I'll have to let you go and let these ghosts stay in the past

I guess I'll be fine