If You Could

If you could see him you'd understand why I

Reached out my arm and stuck it straight into the fire,

The heat of the moment, all a-burn with desire,

Hypnotized by the flame, transfigured by the light

If you could see him, you'd see him in the magazine

Caught between what was and what might have been

On a cheap assignment, waiting to be seen,

Caught up in the hot flame chasing someone else's dream

If you could see him you'd understand why I

Let him leave a mark on me and never once did try

Just let the phone ring another thousand times and

When at last he answered it I never said goodbye

If you could see him you'd understand how

Something as simple as a smile can bring you down and

Open up desire til I worship the ground,

Just another semi-precious jewel in his crown

One to the parade of girls he liked hanging around

If you could see him, you'd already be drawn

If you could see him, you might see yourself there

Among the baubles that crawled up on his shelf and

Kicked the God almighty from the land of sad lost dreams,

Send you riding back to hell, set off walking on your knees

If you could see him, you'd understand

Why I fell so hard I broke

Like a hammer breaks in the steelyard

Seeing all the goosebumps rising up into the air

See yourself as just another victim

Caught up in the great nowhere

If you could see him, you'd know why I cared,

Ran out of the house into the cold night air

All burning with desire that had turned to despair

Tortured by the way I showed him just how much I cared

If you could see him, you'd know he was the one who

Spent all of your insecurities and wore all your systems down

Filled your head with promises, had you running 'round

In a world of insecurities which had long since ceased being any fun

And this great wide world no, never will you find,

You'd already be gone.