Look To The Sky

(Verse 1)

It's a new day, it's a new page

It's a new paper mate and it's a new me

But it's the same pain aggravation on my brain

I cannot escape it or tame it I'm not the same man

They saying I changed since a tiny taste of the fame

But the truth is I'm lost losing my cool and sane - shit

I mean my sanity sorry don't get me wrong I'm happy that ya'll are having me

But I ain't gon' be happy till I'm happily married with cash stacks for my family

I see me staring a cold stare in the mirror

Cause' the fact that my chances is slim and none got me scared

Scared to pursue my wishes and ambitions

Which is more of a mission a inquisition so listen

I'm inking a petition I'm giving all I can give

And if I fall into submission then I'm finished - I quit

I'm a little bitter - shit - I'm a little bit of everything

He has everything I want and everything I need so I guess he is king

But I'm deserving I know this I'm comatose holding my own with lonliness

hovering on my shoulder and God knows I can hold it

till the day comes I ain't gon' stay young

I need to make it so I pray some

(Chorus)

Look to the sky with my hands closed

I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone

Look to the sky for the answers

They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)

Look to the sky with my eyes closed

Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow

Look to the sky with a question

Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)

(Verse 2)

It's another day, it's another page

It's another paper mate and it's another face

With no emotion I'm holing back on my hoping

And closing the open door cause' my hearts close to exploding

Exposing my whole life and reaching only a handful

Taking you through my pain the journey comes to a stand still

I lash out snap back snapping another pencil

I probably would snap more if I lost you to that cancer

But I - keep my head up, even seeing me fed up

Ain't enough to get me down in the dirt I get my bread up

I said a lot of things I said I didn't mean

Wish I could take them back take a slap I was sixteen

A sick teen with sick dreams singing about sick things

It seems every time I sin it comes back to sin me

But I changed my ways in shades of gray

The days go by so slow but I still pray

(Chorus)

Look to the sky with my hands closed

I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone

Look to the sky for the answers

They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)

Look to the sky with my eyes closed

Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow

Look to the sky with a question

Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)

(Verse 3)

There ain't no more days, ain't got no more pages

I lost my last paper mate and I lost my own face

I lost my whole faith to my own blade

I'm contemplating on taking my own grave today

I been considering slitting my wrists and giving up

But every time I pick the cut someone's picking me up

And putting me up on their shoulders to take me home

And picking a shovel up filling the hole I dug alone

And whoa I lived my life all wrong I spit my life through this song

To have nothing happen from rapping for so long

But I - digress I'll die of a sudden death

This stress pressing my chest depression settles my head

And guessing is not my fashion smith and Wesson's what I'm grasping

When minimum wage passion's not the checks I'm trying to cash in

But I stay grounded like a rose on a grave

I can lose all the faith in the world but I still pray.

(Chorus)

Look to the sky with my hands closed

I'm praying for one thing that you don't ever leave me so I stand lone

Look to the sky for the answers

They coming with one shot ain't room for second chances (so man up)

Look to the sky with my eyes closed

Imagine the sky frozen over with no God we die slow

Look to the sky with a question

Ya lesson's in session I can tell ya with my best sin (so stand up)