You Wasn't There

The more I think about tonight

The more I think I'll never trust again

The things I said the way I read this conversation

When you wasn't there

Think the velocity things change

And people forgot even if they were sad

It's not a crime to live like this

I'm only saying, I wish I was like that

If only now and than, I try to be usefull

I need something to prove for others and to myself

And I'll be lying if I say that I don't have the potential

To do the things I have in my net

Cause in my mind I'm some kind of a monster

Flawlessly executing everything in my head

But in reality I have so much to lose

I'm almost 22, that's no good for my health

I took a drink, when you wasn't there

Everything feels blue, when you wasn't there

It was a dream I was almost there

Everyday's Tuesday, when I'm on my back

We think a lot a like

We lack comunication, but that's my bad

Surviving last year was hard

I know that you know it but it was so harsh

It was so harsh

Just matter of time

Before you leave me for good

I'm no longer peter pan

Live no longer wonderland

We share the same things

But somehow the shape of you

Couldn't remind me less of me

That's exactly what I mean

But it's impractical to stand by my ways

So I just stand by your face

That way I don't lose myself

Lord, if I'm trying I don't think I deserve it

It's pretty absurd how much I look for your help

And in reality I don't know if you're real

You gave me something to think

When you wasn't there