Honest

Maybe it’s the way I was born and raised

Cut off my emotion to survive my days

Now I see people as a way to get by

All I gotta do is find the truth in my lies

Five months later, you’re still around

You should be embarrassed by the way I let you down

Making excuses for you and not me

Blame it on yourself cuz you’re too afraid to leave

You keep saying that you’re needing me

See me for the man that you swear I’ll be

But you ain’t gonna know me the way I do

I’d never give it up on a life for two

Gun to my head and you know you can't help me

Another in my bed and you know you can’t help me

Took another hit and you know you can’t help me

Just go, yeah, just go

I don’t understand why you’re so forgiving

Caught me red-handed but you still won’t listen

You know what I told you since the day we started

I’ll always be honest

The cops are at your door and they ask you where I am

You paint a puzzled face and you lie for me again

Risking your life like you do a hundred times

Eventually you’re gonna take the fall for my crimes

Slam the door and look me in the eye

Screaming this is gonna be the last time

You’re tired of me taking advantage

So I cry and you pay for the damage

Gun to my head and you know you can't help me

Another in my bed and you know you can’t help me

Took another hit and you know you can’t help me

Just go, yeah, just go

I don’t understand why you’re so forgiving

Caught me red-handed but you still won’t listen

You know what I told you since the day we started

I’ll always be honest

When it gets heavy you break down and say

Why are you heartless who made you this way?

I stare at you vacantly right through your face

I draw a blank

I-I-I draw a blank

Throwing my shit cuz you don’t understand

The reasons behind why I am who I am

You beg for the answer we know I don’t have

I draw a blank

I draw a blank

Gun to my head and you know you can't help me

Another in my bed and you know you can’t help me

Took another hit and you know you can’t help me

Just go, yeah, just go

I don’t understand why you’re so forgiving

Caught me red-handed but you still won’t listen

You know what I told you since the day we started

I’ll always be honest

Have betrayed you

I have betrayed you

Please don’t forgive me I’ll do it again

I have betrayed you

I have betrayed you

I’ll always be honest

Have betrayed you

I have betrayed you

Please don’t forgive me I’ll do it again

I have betrayed you

I have betrayed you

I’ll always be honest