What If

You only get it if you risk it

You know the biscuit

And everybody seems to love the taste while I still sit here

Choking on my silly mind

That I have tried to fight

But deep inside me when it’s time

It surely will survive

It starts with overthinking

Before I’m sinking

Drowning in the sea of thoughts

Somewhere between yes and no or stop and go

And then it starts to grow

My fear of I don’t know

It comes like 1, 2, 3 and then it disappears

The aftertaste remains

Equals a 5 course meal

It leaves no time, no break, no pause or space

I’m feeling fully lost inside this maze

No wonder no one ever seems to understand me

I just don’t get it myself

Try not to hate me

Until the next big thing that you think is tiny

But my brain quite likes it

And decides to size it

I, I, I want to say what keeps me low

Want it to shut, shut up

Want it to get, get up

Get up and let go

And I, I don’t want to fear what I don’t know

What if it turned out right

And I’d be stuck though I could get up and let go

Oh

What, what, what if