Waiting For The Bodies Down The River Floating

Inside the pain, I count how many breaths I have left

Inside the pain, I count how many heartbeats I have left

Inside the pain, I feel the lack of impulse in my flesh

Inside the pain, I have no strength to breathe in the air

Inside the pain, no more caressing spiked memories

I miss you

Or maybe I don’t

I know you would like me to

Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts

Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse

My existence smashed against the wall

See how fast it starts to decompose

Why me?

Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts

Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse

My existence smashed against the wall

Be transparent something I can easily ignore

When unrelenting voices

Try to exert control

Sit by the river

And watch the bodies flow

In prayer

Fold your hands

In prayer

Bowels burn

In prayer

All my faith

In prayer

Multiple collecting of self

Putting pieces together

Something finished

To be a human as expected

Uniform, a closed constellation

Fixed pattern of hemoglobin

Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts

Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse

My existence smashed against the wall

See how fast it starts to decompose