January 21st

There’s a lot you don’t wanna think about

And sometimes you can keep it away for days

But you see something and you’re reminded

You see someone and you’re reminded

It’s all you can think about

It’s the only thing you think about

But it’s not something you wanna talk about

So you just keep talking to yourself

The words spinning around in your head

Over and over and over and over and

I think, I think too much

Thoughts spilling out of my head

And learning how to swim

Finding homes in other parts of my body

I can feel them bubbling just under my skin

Running through my veins just a little too fast

A little too thick to flow right

Clogging up the tunnels and turning to sludge

Then my toes start to tingle

And my hands feel like they might fall off

There’s a gaping hole in my chest

And I can feel the wind blowing straight through me

I think, I think too much

Thoughts spilling out of my head

And learning how to swim

Finding homes in other parts of my body

Thoughts growing legs

Crawling under my skin like bugs

Swimming through my veins

Swimming upstream to spawn

And make me worry even more

I think, I think, I think, I think