UCLA

Often I find myself stuck somewhere I don't want to be

I'm starting to think that there's something really wrong with me

I don't really go out much I mostly stay at home

But if I don't go out sometime soon I'll probably die alone

I must confess I am oh so afraid

Times running out and I think its far too late

I'm looking for a girl that was never even born

The death of a fantasy that is far too pitiful to mourn

I never cared about politics and the bullshit of it all

I don't care about anything my opinion is just too small

I've walked around the entire world and I would do it twice

I'm still looking for something that's missing from my life

And I don't even know what I'm looking for and I ask myself why

I feel so sad all the time but I can rarely cry

I know I have to love myself before someone else loves me

Believe me I've been really trying but its just not that easy

I just wish that I had a normal brain

Without the constant anxiety that drives me insane

Maybe one day I will end up just fine

And I will no longer feel so dead inside

Now I know that I don't have to be afraid

And now I know it's not too late it's gonna be okay

I cannot wait for when you are here with me

When I can finally feel completely at ease