I Can't Win

whoever said the grass is greener on the other side

never tried to lift a piece of their lawn

the pressures of the world won't let up

I'm so hungry and I'm fed up, I spent half my life tryna get on

I never knew the day would come, when I had about

5 records out, still work a day job, livin' at my moms house

still hoppin' turnstyles, can't catch a taxi

trying to sell records every week infront of fatbeats

this can't be the way it is for cats I've seen on TV

if I said I was a rapper I don't think you would believe me

it's easy to make it, seem easy to make it

but it's much harder than the eye can see when it's naked

you think you can take it, then you need to think again

cause you about to play a hand in a game you can't win

I can't get a job if I wear my hip hop clothes

can't get a deal if I use my hip hop flows

nobody wants to pay me to do all these hip hop shows

bout time my album dropped, shit it's five years old

and I've been told, paitence, this year you gonna make it

then december 31st comes, I hear the same shit

but I'm so close I can taste it

I'm so next that, me and success is adjacent

but time is wasting, I ain't been, gettin' any younger

can't wait to gain weight, my life is driven by this hunger

shit I hardly ever sleep, yet I'm a slept on emcee

you don't mention 9/11 than you ain't considered deep

but I am the epitome of what a real emcee should be

no matter how loud you critics be, you won't get rid of me

it shouldn't be this much of a struggle, a hustle, but it is

shouldn't be so much trouble just to get a couple spins

records should be reaching millions, not just a couple friends

but the dollar signs and numbers win, welcome to the biz

I get mad frustrated when I rhyme

so I sit and write more rhymes and take out my frustrations

a infinite loop, and this shit isn't cute

my lifes foul, on the line, less than a minute to shoot

I try kickin' the truth to these inquisitive youth

but they won't listen to you unless you fit in their group

so when I get in the booth, it's like I'm tryna feed my fam

and someone comes along and just spits in the soup

on top of that, I got these wanna be's

eating right infront of me, I look 'em in the eye like that wasn't for you

now I do what I love, and I love what I do

it ain't my hobby, it's my passion and by now it should be obvious

I'm sorry kid, I just hate dealing with these politics

got less in common with rappers than senators and lobbiests

and 99.9 percent of it is who you know

the other .01 percent is how you flow

even if your love for this is infinite with room to grow

a demo and a dream ain't really gonna get you through the do'

so by the hairs of my chin and every inch of my skin

I play again and again until the day that I win