On a Tuesday

I was born in this building

It was the first tuesday I had ever seen

And if I live to see tomorrow

It will be my tuesday number 2,119

How life has its way

Of turning your best suit

The wrong way

As if to smile and say

I feast on irony, my friend

I'm come-what-may

And it might just be, my friend

This is your unlucky day

Will you change?

What would you give to stay?

Will I change? I honestly can't say

I have no promises to trade

Before the lord of come-what-may

To provide me with another day

Every promise that I make

Is a promise I might break

The things we humans say to survive

The promises we make

The lies we tell

The vows we take

The battles we all win to survive

The prices we will pay

Though we don't know

We will lose one day

Life is a ride, they say

But there are tickets I’ll never pay

I'm afraid there'll be no vow today

For any God of come-what-may

You let me live

You let me die

For what I am, right here and now

For nothing more than all I am today

I close my eyes

I do not pray

Promises – they tempt me too

Will I change? Change

I won't be that fool

Maybe for a day, a week

Maybe two

I'm a dreamer physicist

A man-child escapist

The face of death won't make me

An evangelist

I close my hands

But not in prayer

Not in prayer

Into fists

I lost the will

The things we humans say to survive

The promises we make

The lies we tell

The vows we take

The battles we all win to survive

The prices we will pay

Though we will lose

Either way

I lost the will

I lost the way

I haven’t lost the faith

It’s just lost in me

I lost the will

The things

That we must say

To pretend

This passing light of day

Is not the end

Is not the end

The things that we all say

To be saved

The things that we will trade

Just give away

For one more day

We'll smile and tell

Sweet lies

To chase away

The shadows that play

Cast

By the passing light of day