Eyes As Candles

My world is stirring sickly

spits out our voices singing,

"Sha la la, oh, no no,"

to kingdom come so slightly.

Here in the void in your place,

I twitch and tweak allusion

to sit and stare so blankly

into our whole confused house.

Why do I always need to need you when you're fleeing?

Where do you go when I'm around?

What have I done? What have I lost that's so defeating?

And have the nerve to wear the crown?

Oh

Na na na na na na, hey! hey! (x4)

Some unguarded room:

a smoky figure fills me full,

makes my head swell in ruin.

My family kneels at the pew,

They nod, "We believe in what you're doing!"

I feel you rise above me,

the western landscape's towering,

and from my shell of a body

the flowers blossom for picking.

Why do I always need to need you when you're fleeing?

Where do you go when I'm around?

What have I done, what have I got that's so defeating?

And have the nerve to wear the crown?

Oh

Na na na na na na, hey! hey! (x4)

I've waited and waited for someone to take it.

Don't fight it, don't bother an inch for another.

Don't listen, don't hear them, they're in this together.

I've learned well, now hear me, there's much to be fearing.

I'm used to your absence, your faceless distraction.

I've painted your problems but found them attractive.

Now I've been leaning towards a life far more caring,

thrown back through the dark with your eyes as my candles,

and your life, and my life, directions can render.

And all of a sudden you left me to handle

the reasons that never forbid me to (step out?).

And somehow or somewhere I found out the secret -

To say it aloud without actually breathing.