Christmas Lights

fresh snow on the suburbs

staying at my parents

it hasn't been a good year

but things are all right here

sleeping in the spare room

that used to be my bedroom

even though I'm home now

I feel completely homeless

I'm looking at the moon

shining on the snow

and everything was blue

except the Christmas lights

walking round the basement

where my band used to practice

sometimes I don't want to make new friends

sometimes I just miss my old friends

but I'm seeing someone new now

she calms my heart down

but I'm too scared to tell her

how crazy I can get sometimes

I'm looking at the moon

shining on the snow

and everything was blue

except the Christmas lights

I never feel better after I cry

I spent 6 months of my life just wanting to die

I'm learning how to be alone without be lonely

learning how to be lonely without losing my mind

I'm looking at the moon

shining on the snow

and everything was blue

except the Christmas lights