Feel Better

I don't wanna feel better

No one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over you

I wanna sit with you in bed

I don't wanna feel better

I'd give anything to miss you again

I don't wanna get over it

I wanna get under it instead

The book sits on top of clean and messy blankets

On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night

When I get in it late

And late at night, I'm chugging gatorade

And someone's breaking up when I crack up

Because I know I'll never know just what to say

I'm a communist, a terrorist, an mpdg thot

Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room

Living out the shady christian plot of twilight

Or the bible or the lover by duras

Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish

And really fuckin' lost

But someone loved me

Someone fucking loved me

Someone fucking loved me

And I fuckin' loved them too

Goddamn it, I was worth something

I fuckin' learned something

I had my, I had my cake

I don't wanna feel better

(I don't wanna feel better)

(I'd give anything to miss you again)

(I don't wanna get over it)

(I wanna rip it to shreds)

We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed

And we drank it to go out

Or just stay in, or to feel sad

But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again

The Sun has began to set

I'm a socialist, marxist, libertarian slut

I am an awkward teenage virgin

And I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed

But other times I cry or don't make noise at all

I'd give my life to have a room

That feels that small

'Cause someone loved me

Someone fucking loved me

Someone fucking loved me

I loved them too

Goddamn it, I was worth something

I fuckin' earned something

I had a right to die, a right to live

A right to choose, too

And God, no!

Of course, I don't wanna feel better!

Can you fucking imagine?!

No one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over it

I wanna rip the stars to shreds

I don't wanna feel better

Of course, it hurt, of course, it fuckin' hurt

It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes

That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck

And also somehow making it

I think I might've died there twice

And I would do it all again

I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an ocd-machine

Or I'm a healthy baby-girl

Who traded sunshine for disease

But when my head hit my cheap pillow

I could tell I had a heart

And I wanna tear this fascist milky way apart

'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me

All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

Goddamn it, I was worth something

I fuckin' learned something

And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you

All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew

And now you're over there and I'm way over here

What am I gonna do?

I don't wanna feel better

No one's ever gonna love me like that again

I don't wanna get over you

I wanna sit with you in bed

I don't wanna feel better

(I don't wanna feel better)