Before It's Over (part. 2)

Visions of me and my peeps at the top

Nothing came easy, we needed a plot

And they said they'd doubt we'd ever make it

But thats the very same reason we fought

So close to giving up on life, I wanted to quit

Like why keep going if they don't know you exist?

But the fans helped me down like no other

So I hope that you get everything that you ever dreamed of

Cause I know it's a bitch

Yeah, this thing we call life

But y'all are helping me make it through

All I dream of is my music doing the same for you

But tell me, wheres God when you need him?

Why does it only feel like the devil is present

When my mind is tempted by my demons

Shit, I guess this is all a part of his plan

But it's hard to keep my faith when everyone says that you hardly a man

Even though you taking care of your fam

Even though you put all your dreams on the line

And gave them all that you can

I give my life for them, would they do the same for me?

It got me thinkin if the shit they said was make believe

Cause it just seems like all they ever do is take and leave

And leave me in the dust, without a place to be

People lookin' in from the outside, they don't know what you feelin'

My worlds caving in, I'm suffocating, crushed

By the ceiling, the walls are closing in

And 4 years back, if you asked anyone

About marco they just say I lost hope in him

Well I ain't even have hope in myself

And they keep saying they feel me, but they don't know how I felt

When I was on the ground dying, screaming just for someone to help

But no one came, I had to comfort myself

Going through a pain, I just couldn't take

I might much rather die, it gets to me everytime

I ain't even tell my mother goodbye

These niggas try to kill me, like really these niggas tried

So it must mean that there's a reason I'm breathing and still alive

And I dont want revenge

I want the niggas to see me thrive and live my dreams

And watch me change the world

And one day realize that they can do it too

They just need someone to open their eyes

Cause I ain't got no hate in my heart for not one of these guys

Cause all these cats wanna be gangsta, and I just wanna be me

Just wanna be free from the world and shit thats all on tv

Seems like I'm dodging all my incoming calls, ain't replying to texts

Man I'm just tryna get away from it all

And moms deserves a new house, but I just can't afford it

Feel like I got the perfect song but I just can't record it

If this was my last song, how long would it last?

See, I know I've fucked up but now thats all in the past

Cause everything could be gone in a flash

So watch me pave the way and have a team of leaders follow my path

And I bet my teachers couldn't name a day they saw me in class

Fuck around, and have me speak to your students, watch all of them pass

You ain't succeed till you fall on your ass

Cause shit, we fell way too many times to count, now all of us laugh

But they say men cry too

Every teardrop from my eye, I ask myself

What have you done good for besides you?

I'm still a kid so I still make mistakes

I just wanna live, before the good times fade away now

Before the good times fade away now

And where is everyone I used call my friend?

I've been so lost inside myself, I guess I lost my touch within'

I mean, I don't blame them, I got too much on my mind

Trust issues from the past, but I wish I could press rewind

And take it all back

Fuck rap, fuck the media, fuck the news

The internet, and all these fuckin' lies they feeding ya'

Fuck apologies, cause everything I did, it happened for a purpose

And fuck em if they ever said you worthless

So, fuck my anxiety, fuck my depression

I just can't figure out the reason why the fuck I've been stressin'

And fuck trying to love someone who just dont seem to love you back

Cause we all deserve someone to be there when we feel trapped

Or lost and confused, we all got something to prove

But I just can't stand the thought of losing someone like you

Fuck stressing on the people that put you down for no reason

Fuck the ones who said they didn't believe in everything

That you said you would do

And now that its done, they start to come running

Fuck drinking to the point that you feel nothing

Fuck the rumors, fuck the gossip, dog, fuck they assumptions

Fuck the ones that said they had your back

When they knew they was frontin

And fuck every doubt that they had against you

They was clowin on you, you thought they was clowin with you

But it's all good

Shit, I guess it's all a part of his plan

Cause everything they said I'd never be, is all that I am

Yours truly

Dear lord, please bless us with the strength

To make it through these hard times and when

We can't find our way, please let your light be our

Guidance, and if anyone shall be looking down on

Another person may, they only be our loved ones

Looking down on us from the heavens and may

You bless us with the courage to be ourselves

Rather then fool ourselves the start of a new legacy

In Jesus name I pray, amen