Fake Smiles 2

And, oh

I said

Hey, come back

To my arms, yeah

This hurts, yeah, fuck, I know

I can't take this shit no more

But I got this, this life is short

Yeah, look

They say nothing lasts forever, love always fades away

I try to hide the pain, so I guess I'm the one to blame

I'm in the dark fallin', drownin', callin' your name

I still hear your voice, I still see your face

But I–held on to you, but you were killin' me slow

Two things, love and compassion, things that we'd never show

We all just run from the truth and all the things that we know

And still I'm lookin' for you, but I just hope that you grow, fuck

I'm not as okay as I pretend to be

Runnin' from the past and I can't see what lies ahead of me

I gave up on everyone, I gave up on everything

I know there's a heaven, I just don't think it was meant for me

If you knew me you would judge me for all these mistakes

So like the rest of us I carry this smile on my face

And act like everything's okay as I try not to break

My smile is like the love you gave all along, it was fake

Been so neglected, I don't even know my worth no more

Sinners like us don't find forgiveness in a church no more

Meds, they don't work no more, my head doesn't work no more

Sometimes I'd rather die 'cause that wouldn't hurt no more

But some nights I wanna call you and swallow my pride

'Cause some nights I just feel empty and hollow inside

Why do we hold on to the people that promise us lies?

Why do we kill ourselves to live if all of us die?

I'm slowly breakin' down, it's hard to fake my smile

I learned the things that help us breathe can also make us drown

I just can't take it now

I just can't take it now

My demons talk to me, these angels never make a sound

Sometimes I look inside the mirror and stare at myself

Hate who I am, I have this pro'lem comparin' myself

Sometimes we love someone who turns into somebody else

I got so lost in you, forgot how to care for myself

We fight addictions, we hate each other, we're all the same

We dig for love, bury the past and end up in the grave, yeah

But who's to blame? I guess we all change

We hurt the ones we love because of our pain, fuck

And, oh

I said

Come back

To my arms

This hurts, I know-oh

But I got this, I'm on my own